written to me, by a friend:
"Yeah, I know.. It’s easy to feel sad about it (and that’s ok) but I think you should think of it as a good thing too. It’s not like you’re suddenly not going to be together again or not be as close again. That bond and relationship will always be there. It just might not be as immediate. It’s all a gradual thing, don’t focus on the "funk” because obsessing over feeling shitty won’t fix anything.
I know we’ve been through different things, but I can tell you that change is really fucking hard. Growing up (dear god) can feel a lot like you’re falling apart from people you love and grew up with, but it’s not that. They’re always there, and those bonds get stronger. You’re just opening yourself up to more things and that’s a good thing.
I know I’ve been saying 'Oh I’ve been doing so much better lately' and that’s true, but I’ve also had a lot of really bad moments where, like you said, it hits me in waves. It like sits on my chest and I feel heavier, my brain starts going all over the place like places I don’t want it to go, and I don’t know why or when it’s going to go away. But then eventually it does. And that’s all that matters. It’s okay to feel like shit, just know that it’ll get better.
I know that was a long-winded answer but I hope you get something out of it, I don't know."
"Yeah, I know.. It’s easy to feel sad about it (and that’s ok) but I think you should think of it as a good thing too. It’s not like you’re suddenly not going to be together again or not be as close again. That bond and relationship will always be there. It just might not be as immediate. It’s all a gradual thing, don’t focus on the "funk” because obsessing over feeling shitty won’t fix anything.
I know we’ve been through different things, but I can tell you that change is really fucking hard. Growing up (dear god) can feel a lot like you’re falling apart from people you love and grew up with, but it’s not that. They’re always there, and those bonds get stronger. You’re just opening yourself up to more things and that’s a good thing.
I know I’ve been saying 'Oh I’ve been doing so much better lately' and that’s true, but I’ve also had a lot of really bad moments where, like you said, it hits me in waves. It like sits on my chest and I feel heavier, my brain starts going all over the place like places I don’t want it to go, and I don’t know why or when it’s going to go away. But then eventually it does. And that’s all that matters. It’s okay to feel like shit, just know that it’ll get better.
I know that was a long-winded answer but I hope you get something out of it, I don't know."